Someone talked to me today.
Without yelling at me, or throwing rocks at me, or hitting me, or calling me crazy, or calling me insane, or pulling my cane from my hand and throwing it where I can’t reach it then pushing me in the road.
That is the 3rd time this year, 2024, that a person has talked to me without being violent, hateful, or a bully.
I also got a chance to talk to her.
It was less than 3 minutes, but OMG! This is so exciting! Someone actually talked to me!!!!!
This hasn’t happened in 8 years!
Here is the video footage off my dashcam:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_uszRfI2rGU
I also got a chance to talk to her. Which is a really big thing, as I have been without speech therapy since the golf club woman broke my spine on November 14, 2013, and left me crippled and bedridden and having to relearn to walk.
And I was still mute when this happened. I had the surgery which gave me the ability to speak, June 24, 2016. I only have limited verbal speech, now, my voice is a whisper, you must be very close to hear me, and it is slow and stuttered badly because I still am unable to fully open my jaw or move my jaw at a speed to allow normal speed speech others have.
My son was murdered, and I was crippled November 14, 2013, 3 years BEFORE I had the jaw surgery. I was mute my whole life, and people assumed I could not speak because of vocal chord reasons. No one ever checked my jaw.
I was still mute at the time of the attack. The golf club attack happened at Southern Maine Community College, a few minutes after 10PM at the parking lot of the Buglight Lighthouse at Prebble Fort on the college campus. November 14, 2013. And at the time Robert Vettes, Chris, Megan Grumbling, Kevin Sweeney, and Andrew Parker, were the professors who had banned together to try to teach me how to speak. They did that 3 days a week, every semester, 3 semesters a year for 5 years.
The college paying to have speech therapists and psychologists and Dr Andrew Parker (a psychiatrist) to help me learn to speak. Those people devoted several years of their life to trying to figure out why I could not talk, but none of them ever thought it could be my jaw was fused shut that was the issue.
After the golf club attack, the doctors did a bunch of MRIs, scans, and x-rays from February 2014 to June 2016, and it was during the June 2016 MRI, that the doctor noticed my jaw bone was fused shut, and scheduled me for surgery. They removed 7 of my teeth and a lot of the jaw bone, replaced everything with a 3d-printed resin that was kiln fired into a porcelain plate. The bones and jaw and teeth on the right side of my face are all fake porcelain, and also I have plastic surgery to fix the scars. Nearly the entire right side of my face is ceramic and plastic. It’s WHY I started wearing the veil and dark glasses. The veil and glasses cover most of the scars.
People always accuse me of being Muslim and wearing a hijab but I am a Mormon and I wear a veil over my face because of all the surgeries that were done to rebuild my face. I have been beaten up several times in the past two years, since I started trying to walk outside again, by people who say I am wearing a hijab. It makes me very sad to see how Muslim women get treated. What I wear is a Catholic prayer scarf that some Catholic nuns gave me after the surgery.
Had the golf club women not broken my spine, I’d still be mute, because it was a side effect of all the surgeries and scan while rebuilding my spine, that resulted in the discover of my fused jaw. I have only been able to speak since 2016 and it is still very limited. Because my vocal chords were not used for over four decades, they grew wrong and so my voice now that surgery gave me a voice, is very quiet and slow and stuttered, so even though I can now talk, it is still difficult for most people to understand my words.
But they were trying to teach me to talk at the school, and I had a very hard time forming words because of my jaw, which had been like that since childhood so I have never talked.
Since the golf club attack I have not been able to stand or sit up long enough to a time to be able to return to work or college or church yet. I have not been to church since 2013, and for 47 years I never missed church, not once before. It is very distressing not being able to go to church, even more distressing is not one person from church has visited me since I became crippled.
Same with my friends from work nd from college. Everyone from church, work, and college, as well as my relatives and family, fully shunned me after the golf club attack. With most of them being Mormons, shunning is a full blown shunning too: They pretend you are dead. They pretend I am dead, to the extent, they even had a funeral. I don’t know why they shun me, no has ever told me the reason.
So, my speech therapy was ended November 14, 2013 when the crazy woman with the golf club attacked and broke my spine and murdered my baby. But I did not have the jaw surgery until June 24, 2016, three years later. So I have not yet had any practice in conversations with other people.
I started making YouTube and Twitch videos so that I could practice speaking by talking to the camera, but that does not teach me how to do back and forth conversations with other Humans, and I still have not yet learned how to do conversations with people, and I have no one to help me learn that aspect of speaking.
So, it was a very big deal for this woman to talk to me today, because it is the first time since 2016, that I have had a chance to practice speaking with another person.
Like I said, this is the 3rd time someone has spoken to me this year, but, it is the first time, in 8 years that a person actually stopped and waited for me to respond before walking away, so today was the first time since my June 24, 2016 jaw surgery of attempting to have a conversation with anything other then a camera.
It is very strange to experiance someone talking to me and not also hitting me. Kindness is not a Human trait. It was one of the first things I learned when I first started trying to interac with Humans. The bulk of them are very mean, very violent, yell annd scream constantly. I am not used to interacting with people who are not trying to hit me while yelling at me.
…but I do not let that stop me from writing novels and getting my books published.medium.com
Info about golf club attack here:
aka Full details of the events surrounding my son’s murder and my becoming crippledmedium.com
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