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Why is Ben having a fit about where I park my car? I'm in a wheelchair, and trying to relearn how to walk, so, for the past2 years have been daily walking around the block pushing my wheelchair, using it like a rollator/walker. At the start of doing so, I was parking my car at the end of the driveway (beside the dumpster, behind the wheelchair ramp) because it was only 75 feet from the wheelchair ramp.  However, in November 2025, a huge rainstorm washed out the lawn/caused a mudslide that collapsed the entire hill behind the dumpster, before the wheelchair ramp, and the land lord never fixed, likely never will. Meaning, now, I have to go around the side of the building, 20 feet, to get to the other driveway, 75 more feet, then go down Main St, 140 more feet, turn to the side street and go 800 more feet, to now get to West Cutts street, another 55 feet, to FINALLY reach my car… that is sitting only 20 feet from the door, because of the mud slide that has been there over a year,...
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this video reminded me of an event which happened in May 2026, which i had not mentioned online... i live on the beach in Old Orchard Beach, and for years was daily walking my dog on the beach, became paralized 2013, and only regained some ability to get out of bed and start using a wheelchair in 2021, after 9 years beridden. its only now in 2026 that im able to stand up and walk a few feet. this lead to excitnent of trying to walk on the beach for the first time in 14 years... uhm... my wheelchair made it down the boardwalk, but immediatly sunk into the soft sand soon as getting off the boardwalk... tried using a walker to get the rest of the way, but only got halfway to the water before a man in his 30s and his 2 sons aged around 8 and 10 picked up my wheelchair and tried to carry it off the beach to their truck... fortunatly, i yelled out, "that guy is stealing my wheelchair" and a group of teenaged girls who was near by, ran after the guy and started bonking him with their big beach bags, while yelling thry were going to call child protective services for teaching his children to steal... they helped me get back to my wheelchair and helped me back to the boardwalk... im in my 50s, the girls who helped me were maybe 14 to 16. i have not tried to go to the beach again yet. also, my wheelchair has a dash camera on it, so i have video footage of the whole thing. I miss going to the beach and im horrified that we live in a society where people think stealing a wheelchair is okay.

Wheelchair thieves are a thing did you know that? my car and my dog Koko sitting in my wheelchair, photo by me, Wendy Christine Allen this video reminded me of an event which happened in May 2026, which i had not mentioned online... i live on the beach in Old Orchard Beach, and for years was daily walking my dog on the beach, became paralized 2013, and only regained some ability to get out of bed and start using a wheelchair in 2021, after 9 years beridden. its only now in 2026 that im able to stand up and walk a few feet. this lead to excitnent of trying to walk on the beach for the first time in 14 years... uhm... my wheelchair made it down the boardwalk, but immediatly sunk into the soft sand soon as getting off the boardwalk... tried using a walker to get the rest of the way, but only got halfway to the water before a man in his 30s and his 2 sons aged around 8 and 10 picked up my wheelchair and tried to carry it off the beach to their truck... fortunatly, i yelled out, "that ...
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uhm... with this weeks accounment of the MySpace relaunch im getting tons of my old MySpace friends messaging me and asking if ill be going back to MySpace... uhn... go back? lol! i never left😂 its still there. i dont know why everyone is acting like it was deleted off the internet or something. and yeah, they had a server crash in 2016 and it deleted all files... i had an author profile with tons of short stories on MySpace, lost all of them, and MySpace said because severed deleted everything, the files are just gone... but... MySpace never left... the MySpace is coming back... thing confuses me because it never left 😮 side note, I've had my account since 2005 and I still use it, so, "coming back" is a thing I don't understand, because its still there... and many of us never left it and still use it. STILL USE IT, as in we still log in daily and never stopped, and it has never left... i am hoping it goes back to the old colorful self coded blinking gifs blog it used to be... they removed that in 2010 and the site is just a bland dark blue scrolling feed since without any customization which is why most people left it, because it just looked exactly like a Facebook and no one needed 2 Facebook platforms... i just dont understand why everyone is saying MySpace is coming back, when, uhm, it never left... the colourful coding of it left, and 8 million users mass stopped using it the next day in protest... the lack of customization is why people are still not returning... they need to return to coding glitter graphics and blinkie gifs if they want the users to return... thats the thing, MySpace is NOT gone, its still there, and people arent using it... id love to see it to regain users, but, i cant see if people arent using it now, will they really start a week from now, a month from now... im still on MySpace, and nothing is stopping others from using it right now... but, yeah, im still there, I never left, lol

uhm... with this weeks accounment of the MySpace relaunch im getting tons of my old MySpace friends messaging me and asking if ill be going back to MySpace... uhn... go back? lol! i never left😂 its still there. i dont know why everyone is acting like it was deleted off the internet or something. and yeah, they had a server crash in 2016 and it deleted all files... i had an author profile with tons of short stories on MySpace, lost all of them, and MySpace said because severed deleted everything, the files are just gone... but... MySpace never left... the MySpace is coming back... thing confuses me because it never left 😮 side note, I've had my account since 2005 and I still use it, so, "coming back" is a thing I don't understand, because its still there... and many of us never left it and still use it. STILL USE IT, as in we still log in daily and never stopped, and it has never left... i am hoping it goes back to the old colorful self coded blinking gifs blog it us...
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Health update: I tried to upload the video here directly, but it says the time is too long (its 15 minutes and apparently there is a 10 minute max?) so, i uploaded it to tiktok and here is the link to it. https://vm.tiktok.com/ZP8nnBywf/ ...anyways, update on my health and hospital stay. 4th time having chicken pox since 1975#chickenpox #bellspalsy #RamsayHuntsyndrome #paralysis #recovery

Health update: I tried to upload the video here directly, but it says the time is too long (its 15 minutes and apparently there is a 10 minute max?) so, i uploaded it to tiktok and here is the link to it. https://vm.tiktok.com/ZP8nnBywf/ ...anyways, update on my health and hospital stay. 4th time having chicken pox since 1975 #chickenpox #bellspalsy #RamsayHuntsyndrome #paralysis #recovery
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influancers in maine, i guess

| Did you know Drabbles are no longer welcomed on Medium? My Daily Drabbles are now here on Blogger because Drabbles are no longer allowed on Medium - this link tells you what Medium changed and where you can go if you are a drabble writter looking for a platform that still allows Drabbles - there are not many - most platforms do NOT allow 100 word stories! Medium used to be the number one place for publishing drabbles and getting paid for tthem, but as of April 4, 2025 Medium has banned drabbles from distribution. Full details HERE | weirdness... apparently there is some big famous social media couple here in Maine today hiking across the state and everyone is trying to figure out what town they'll be in next so they can get in their video... seeing how I never heard of this couple before, I assume that means I'm not on social media enough, lol! I seem to always be out of the loop on all these so called famous people everyone supposedly knows about, but also not had a tv...
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14 year anniversary

Today is August 8, 2026, the 14 year anniversary of the backhoe driving over my house. My house at 146 Portland Ave, Old Orchard Beach, Maine, July 4, 2013, photo taken because we had just finished building a baby room on the back. vs My house August 8, 2013, when the same group of people (yes group, the golf club woman was not alone when she attacked November 14, 2013, nor was she alone with her second attack July 2016.) who murdered my son on November 14, 2013 at Southern Maine Community College and crippled me July 26, 2016 at scarborough WalMart,... they  arrived the first time with a backhoe on August 8, 2013, that they used to drive over my house, during a time of day that I normally was home asleep... I had to work a different shift at the Waffle Cone Pizza Food Truck at George's Parking Lot by Bill's Pizza at the OBB Peir, that day, otherwise, I too would be at the bottom of a landfill, along with my house and everything I owned that was also in the house. I was 5 month...
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today marks 5th month without being harassed by the crazy woman

you,know… im sitting on the lawn again today, in Biddeford, Maine, in my wheelchair, and yet again, it is a day with no Tod Murphy woman attacking… its now 5 months since her last attack.  ever since the big police raid on our building in April, which has left an abandoned empty apartment unit in our building, for now 4 months, that crazy blond woman who was yelling at me about some guy named Tod Murphy hasn't shown up.  Not once. im able to go outside and sit on the lawn and in my wheelchair in the driveway and do my novel writing and editing and watercolour painting outside again, like I used to do before she showed up. She showed up Thanksgiving night 2021, and cut all the cable wires off our building, while chanting the name "Tod Murphy" over and over again. Then every day til May 2023, she viscount and violently attacked, grabbing my cane and kicking me in the back to push me into the road in front of on coming cars, always while saying "Im doing this for Tid Mu...
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police car sitting in front of our building with its lights on (out there over 45 minutes now), and another police car is slowly circling the block... meanwhile the black SUV that has been sitting in random driveways all over the block for the past two weeks, is going in and out of driveways on Western, James, West Cutts, and Railway Ave.... this has been happening every night between 11pm and 1am for two weeks now. Some nights as many as 5 police cars sit around the building, and often they shine a spotlight on one specific apartment. I wonder what's going on? Clearly they are watching the apartment 3 doors down in our building, ... the one that is right now "empty" since April (police raided said apartment in April, not sure what the raid was about), but family left next morning, dumped all their furniture and about 300 marhawana plants in the dumpster, then left, no one has seen them since, and since April police have been sitting at our building a few nights week, so for four months now, but the past two weeks its increased a lot. no clue what's going on, except the woman who fled that apartment was the woman who spent since 2021 yelling at me about some guy named Todd Murphy, whom she clearly thought i knew who Todd Murphy is, but i don't know who she is nor do I know who the Todd Murphy is that she kept talking about (she was accusing me of being a journalist writing articles about him, and I think she has me mixed up with the woman across the street from me... the woman across the street from me is a reporter for the Portland Press Herald and her name is very similar to mine, with only two letters different between her name and my name... i am a fiction writer of Omegaverse novels, not a nonfiction journalist for a newspaper and I've tried telling this woman that every time she shows up yelling at me about that Todd Murphy guy that she's obsessed with.) But the Todd Murphy woman is gone, has not attacked me me since the big police raid on that apartment in April, and ever since she left, police have been watching our building, hyper focused on that now empty apartment. No clue what's going on. I don't know if I should feel safer because police sit outside the building or less safe because I assume they are watching for someone dangerous otherwise they wouldn't be there. (its 12:18am right now by the way and they've been sitting there since 11:30pm).I keep noticing them, because I take Koko out to go poop by the tree at the end of the driveway before bed, then go switch out my bedding in my car (i leave it in the car after washing it because the heat dries it out during the day and I can bring it back in nice and dry at night) and because my car is parked at the back driveway, but the wheelchair ramp is at the front driveway, I have to go all the way around the block to get to my car, due to annoying lack of wheelchair access for half the sidewalk... ...so i have to walk by these police cars every night before bed, and it makes me wonder what in the heck is going on with the abandoned apartment in our building that has got the police so fixated on it for so many weeks (four months now)?

police car sitting in front of our building with its lights on (out there over 45 minutes now), and another police car is slowly circling the block... meanwhile the black SUV that has been sitting in random driveways all over the block for the past two weeks, is going in and out of driveways on Western, James, West Cutts, and Railway Ave.... this has been happening every night between 11pm and 1am for two weeks now. Some nights as many as 5 police cars sit around the building, and often they shine a spotlight on one specific apartment. I wonder what's going on?  Clearly they are watching the apartment 3 doors down in our building, ... the one that is right now "empty" since April (police raided said apartment in April, not sure what the raid was about), but family left next morning, dumped all their furniture and about 300 marhawana plants in the dumpster, then left, no one has seen them since, and since April police have been sitting at our building a few nights week, s...
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people around the street (Main street/Cutts street/South Street area) are saying ice killed a man in Biddeford this morning? is that true? does anyone know what's going on?have you heard anything about that? is it just rumours or has anyone actually confirmed that?there was a bunch of polices cars going by this morning up by the library around 6am to 7am when I was walking koko (my dog), saw them when we was crossing Bradbury, looked like maybe a high speed chase was going on or something, but that's kind of normal for the area, i see police cars speeding by around here a few times a week so i didn't think anything of it at the time.. then maybe half hour later as we were heading back, an ambulance went flying through Elm street a bit after. all this happened about 10 houses from my dad's apartment, which was where I was walking to at the time.I wonder if that was the ice shooting everyone is talking about?anyone know what is going on? was there actually a shooting or is people just saying that?

people around the street (Main street/Cutts street/South Street area) are saying ice killed a man in Biddeford this morning?  is that true? does anyone know what's going on? have you heard anything about that? is it just rumours or has anyone actually confirmed that? there was a bunch of polices cars going by this morning up by the library around 6am to 7am when I was walking koko (my dog), saw them when we was crossing Bradbury, looked like maybe a high speed chase was going on or something, but that's kind of normal for the area, i see police cars speeding by around here a few times a week so i didn't think anything of it at the time.. then maybe half hour later as we were heading back, an ambulance went flying through Elm street a bit after.  all this happened about 10 houses from my dad's apartment, which was where I was walking to at the time. I wonder if that was the ice shooting everyone is talking about? anyone know what is going on?  was there actually a shoo...
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Seeing the LDS missionaries, just now, working on their rental car in the driveway, as I walked by and said hi to them and they shunned me as usual, made me realize… I am a 5th generation Mormon, never missed a single meeting or event from 1975 to 2013 when I became paralized, bedridden, and unable to sit up for 13 years, and am only just now in 2026, able to sit upright for 1 or 2 hours a day, and daily push my wheelchair around the block trying to relearn to walk… and I have been across the street from the missionaries since February 2019, so 7 years now, … do you realize that in all that time, not once has a missionary ever stopped by to visit me, me a 5th generation Mormon who never once missed a single 5 hour Sunday meeting, never once missed any of the 3 times a week 4 hour events, paid a full tithe, and paid 3x a full tithe because I also paid 10% to the temple program and 10% to the missionary fund, paying a full 30% of my income to the church for decades… and when I became paralized in 2013, not once since 2013 til now in 2026 has a single missionary, home teacher, visiting teacher, relief society member, or bishopric member ever once stop by to check in on me… and yet, the front door of the missionary building is literally less then twenty feet across the street from my door, where it has been since 2019, right now, and the missionaries are standing there right now, this very second, refusing to even acknowledge i just said hello to them, full on shunning me.Why?What even is going on with the church?I've been bedridden and paralized from a broken spine for thirteen years, and never one in that time has a missionary stopped by to visit. Why? It is against church policy for missionaries to NOT visit the home bound, bring the sacraments to their sick bed.I've been bedridden and paralized from a broken spine for thirteen years, and never one in that time has a visiting teacher stopped by to visit. Why? It is against church policy for visiting teachers to NOT visit the home bound.I've been bedridden and paralized from a broken spine for thirteen years, and never one in that time has a home teacher stopped by to visit. Why? It is against church policy for the visiting teachers to NOT visit the home bound, bring the sacraments to their sick bed.I've been bedridden and paralized from a broken spine for thirteen years, and never one in that time has the relief society stopped by to visit. Why? It is against church policy for the relief society to NOT visit the home bound.I've been bedridden and paralized from a broken spine for thirteen years, and never one in that time has anyone from the bishopric stopped by to visit. Why? It is against church policy the bishopric to NOT visit the home bound, bring the sacraments to their sick bed.The local church appears to be shunning me (shunning is a part of church policy) but I haven't got a clue why.It just seems very odd to me.Well, one things for certain, when I became crippled in 2013, I certainly learned fast who my REAL friends were and who never cared about me to begin with.

Seeing the LDS missionaries, just now, working on their rental car in the driveway, as I walked by and said hi to them and they shunned me as usual, made me realize…  I am a 5th generation Mormon, never missed a single meeting or event from 1975 to 2013 when I became paralized, bedridden, and unable to sit up for 13 years, and am only just now in 2026, able to sit upright for 1 or 2 hours a day, and daily push my wheelchair around the block trying to relearn to walk…  and I have been across the street from the missionaries since February 2019, so 7 years now, …  do you realize that in all that time, not once has a missionary ever stopped by to visit me, me a 5th generation Mormon who never once missed a single 5 hour Sunday meeting, never once missed any of the 3 times a week 4 hour events, paid a full tithe, and paid 3x a full tithe because I also paid 10% to the temple program and 10% to the missionary fund, paying a full 30% of my income to the church for decades…...
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sick of people calling my car haunted

yes…and I think given that people are AGAIN showing up calling my Dodge "haunted", calling my friend "an alien", calling me "transgender", and spreading a bunch of defamation slander connecting me to Stephen King… I think I need to start taking down the contact information of every blogger, podcaster, youtuber, and social media account that is spreading these rumors, and sue every single one of them for CAUSING my car to be cut in half May 10, 2010, for CAUSING the backhoe that drove over my house August 8, 2013, for CAUSING my son's murder November 14, 2013, for CAUSING me to be crippled and in a wheelchair November 14, 2013, and for CONTINUING to CAUSE harassers to show up in person to harass me near daily, STILL now in 2026. DO NOT TRUST ANYONE telling you my car is haunted, telling you my friend is an alien, calling my car "the goldeneagle", calling my friend "Etiole", or trying to connect me or my car to Stephen Kin...
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Ai thoughts

today I had a thought on Ai detectors because people been talking about that Shy Girl book ban a lot this week. and so I decided to ask ChatGPT what it thought. here is what I asked ChatGPT.... .... .... Now keep in mind mind your custom instructions and memory banks and lore about my characters here. so, you've probably heard of the whole Shy Girl book ban by now right? Well it got me thinking about how maybe if someone ran my novels through Ai detectors Ai tells would show up even though its not Ai writing. I'm not sure if I would even know most Ai tells. What words and phrases in this text are most likely to make a reader suspect it was written by AI? Give me a specific list. The famous list includes: delve, realm, meticulous, underscore, commendable, pivotal, tapestry, adept, testament, and the em-dash used three times per paragraph. What others are there? But also things like tapestry, I use a lot because the main character of my series, Quaraun, The Pink Necromancer, is ...
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Squidoo

answering this question/comment: "can you explain what you mean by Squidoo account? I thought Squidoo was your website. Didn't you write every page on Squidoo?" uhm… what? no. Squidoo was a social media site founded by Seth Godin in 2005, it was similar to Facebook, only it paid you for writing blog posts and short stories. You created a profile and then, every day you wrote a thousand word post on the blog section, sort of the same way Tumblr functions now, and the way Facebook functioned back in 2008 before Facebook was overhauled in 2018. Seth Godin sold Squidoo in 2010, and the woman who bought it stole most of the articles off everyone's accounts and tried to republish them as her's. There was a huge lawsuit and we writers won, but, the settlement, when divided between the twenty million accounts, ended up with each of us twenty million users receiving a two dollar class action settlement check in the mail, and the rights to our writing returned to us. Becaus...
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